1. Shroud
Spent years deadening my nerves Turn violence inward
Rise to the sight
Grey industrial haze shroud over the city
Resign rationale for reptilian calm
All frustrations mount and spiral
Anneal my animus slavering teeth rake venom from my tongue
Dredge up far reaching horrors
Suffer patiently
Invite infection to nourish the cancer
Unparalleled extremes
Enter, if you will, virgin territory
No comfort here inside this, the bleak house
Darkness absolute
A pure form imitation of life
Room antiseptic white, blank expressionless
Sliding hands across the plaster
Feel for faults and fractures
My head swimming in circles
Floating endless slipstream
Body salamander slick
Shriveled as a newborn
Vigor wrenched out in pools of salt water
Ground to a halt
Beat of life pulsing intermittently vacillating -
Indecisive
Sliding hands across the plaster
Feel for faults and fractures
Breathe deep the frigid air
Cough on the numbing sting of sleeps pins and needles
It's like swallowing razors
Jagged pieces of glass and steel
Stare into the sun with frozen open eyes
Searching for a simple diversion
Self-induced sense deprivation
Stare into the sun with frozen open eyes
Stare into the sun with frozen open eyes
Icicles form in the furrows of my brows
Sub-zero and sweating Stare into the sun
Frozen open eyes
2. Shards
Summon forth the rain wash away the filth
I can blanch memories
I can't cleanse my soul
Summon forth the flames, strip flesh from bone
I can't slough memories they're like second skin
One cut for memory another for hope
I'm probing for answers
Can only strike a nerve
Cutting cables
Unloading dead weight
Until nothing remains
An innate self-loathing pouring from every aperture
These holes in my skin let the darkness out
Let it flow
These holes in my skin let the darkness out
Let it flow
There's nothing less in this world than what I think of myself
A broken man
Paint a picture of a broken man
Search - For a reason
Probe deep
Strike a nerve
The scars have faded weathered away through the years
All memories remain intact, clear
Crystalline and unpure
Cutting cables,
Unloading dead weight until nothing remains
These holes in my skin let the darkness out
let it flow
In rivulets of blood that flow down my arms
Into the drain
Rivulets of blood flow down my arms
Into the drain
An innate self-loathing pouring from every aperture
Never a truer feeling than pain
To assure me I'm alive
3. Unto Me
If you were to fulfill my desires
Imagine the price you'd pay
You've never felt the anguish
That I've hidden inside
My pain shared unto you
Drink the tears I've cried
Just tell me how hard life is
When you haven't bled
Tell me what you feel
As a tear descends
Principle of pain and pleasure
Actions sacred yet profane
Within the temple of the flesh
Private rituals are ordained
Dignity torn, ripped to shreds
Innocence lost nothing remains
Within blood I've spilled
Wash yourself clean
Reptile shed your guilt
Suffer unto me
No one is innocent
We all have our crosses to bear
Once you felt you were safe in a familiar place
Desire and purpose rearranged
Stumble over a piece of your past you wish kept locked away
To isolate yourself from misery and pain
You want to isolate yourself
Isolate yourself from the misery and the pain
Cast your pride aside and let your emotions take control
It's something you want to feel so let the tears fall
Sifting through remnants of what you left behind
Reopening scars to see what I find
Dignity torn, ripped to shreds
Innocence lost
Nothing remains
Sifting through remnants of what you left behind
Dignity torn, ripped to shreds
Open wounds never mend
4. Murder In Technicolor
This evening's no different from last night or the nights before
I find myself in a fetal position
Hands wrapped tight around my throat
I'm thinking nothing seems to flow except this drowning sweat that's choking
me to question
What I wrote you, at the time, I meant every word
Now each thought like my body twists and contorts
Felt this churning peristalsis reversed
Fluttering in my throat a swarm of locusts erupts from my mouth
Running, stumbling hand over hand Slipping through and splashing the floor
Running, stumbling hand over hand Slipping through and splashing the floor
Running, stumbling hand over hand Slipping through and splashing the floor
Pure adrenaline surge tensed muscle tears from its frame
Pieces strewn from end to end
Still feel no pain locked in overdrive
And if you could move it would only be a crawl
I've see you before in my life
I want to tear you down
Immerse myself in your flames
Bathe in your ashes
before this day I never felt so alive
I've see you before in my life
I want to tear you down
I've see you before in my life
I want to tear you down
Immerse myself in your flames
Yesterday erased a trace of my life
I can't recall
But your voice reminds me
Forever war
Lifetime burning
Another battlefield to prove my worth
Prove my worth as a failure
In your eyes
Ten minutes sway as far as the eye can see
Electrical towers span mile after mile
I've see you before in my life
I've see you before in my life and I want to tear you down
I've come to tear you down
My mind is a ghetto where I'm breeding disease
No refuge in the germ factory
From behind my window I see you standing on the platform waiting on the northbound
Plan my moves six steps in advance
Take refuge in the germ factory
Visions of technicolor murder so vivid so real
Visions of technicolor murder
Fulfilling some obscene prophecy
I've come to tear you down
I've come to tear you down
I've come to tear you down
I've come to tear you down
Obsession spreading like cancer
(Awareness) heightened to arc light precision
Every last detail
5. Into the Wire
Unmistakable, the scent, the chill in the air
Feel Autumn creep into place
Those uncharted thoroughfares and shallows deep
Speak in intricacies
Pale illumination secret emotions
For ransom behind a paper mask
Inside a heart shaped stone
Uninhibited reins unfurled
I couldn't resist the urge to hesitate when I heard you cry
Bastard, you have no shame
Don't you know tears won't wash away real or imagined crimes
Design's flawed structure tests failure seems a perfect fit
Relinquish those ties that bind
Bare devotion in no uncertain terms
Together we'll share our misery
Foster this beautiful child versed in the fury
Spare me the pain of love
Each day I reach a new low
I took the low road to zero
I know you're just like me
You bear the mark, the stain
I know you're just like me
Together we'll share our misery
Foster this beautiful child versed in the fury
You're just what I need
Take my hand
Press it to the burner
Love tastes bittersweet
Screams for revenge
There will come a time, someday soon, you, too, will be alone
You felt the wind at your back so you ran
You took what you wanted
You took as you need
Thought you could disappear leave without a trace
Lose yourself as you wade deep into the city
So run silent, run deep
With closed eyes I focus on the lull of lush static white noise off the highway
Imagine the tide crash the shore
I'll lay here, watch it fall and I won't make a sound
I'll lay here, watch it fall and I won't make a sound
Stirred by the pitter-patter of sleet bouncing off the sill
Nudge my head further into the pillow
Not content with the dreaming
A sprawling shade of gray
Pick myself up tip-toe across icy tile
Nimble as a firewalker
Quick glance at the clock I'm going no where at all
Idly passing the time
Filling in the gaps has become routine
Devote endless effort to a single thought can afford the attention because it doesn't cost a thing
Under a facade of normalcy
A wolf in the guise of sheep
I'll draw you out into the wire
When I bait the trap with rose petals
I'll draw you out into the wire
When I bait the trap
Cascades of red purl over gnashing maws
Love tastes bittersweet, it screams for revenge
Felt nary a tinge of misgiving at what I've done
Excuses are paper thin
Fit to bur Hold you to nothing
I'll honor your lies
6. Slither
I writhe serpentine
Slither into your mind's farthest reach
A little corner of Hell Endhouse, backyard served as an execution chamber
Pets drown in their cages
Across the street backyards dropped into an alleyway
There, compost twists the guts into knots
Feel the roll
Expect the coil to anchor me to the spot
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